I’m in love with Matthew so much and I always will be. He’s the best boyfriend that anybody could ever have and I’m so lucky to have him. We are going to be together forever because he’s my soul mate. <3
Everything has fallen apart and I’m just holding all of the pieces together.
We are going through a very rough patch and it’s because of me and it makes me very angry at myself that I have let us come to this but I just wanted to tell you why I still loved you, nearly two years later.
1. You make me eat.
2. You made me close with my family again.
3. You made me realize that I am not useless and that I am worth something.
4. I gave my innocence to you because I wanted to, I trusted you with it. I wanted you to have it. I still do.
5. I can treat you like complete crap and you’ll still put up with me, thank you for tolerating me.
6. You really appreciate me for what I can do and what I have done for you.
7. You’re one of the few people who have ever gotten jealous over me and it made me feel worth something.
8. You were the first and only person to say no to drugs because of me.
9. You went without months doing drugs because you wanted to make me happy.
10. You spent many, many days with me. It kept me very occupied and happy.
11. We’ve gone to many places and have done many things that I probably wouldn’t have done if it were not for you.
12. You’ve opened up my eyes a whole new world of possibilities, a future.
13. You gave me a chance.
14. You opened up to me, told me about all of the bad and I still loved you so much after it, I loved you even more.
15. You’re the only person to make me feel better when I heard the bad news about my mom.
16. You’ve written me notes that make me feel perfect and great every time I read them, you spoke true in your notes.
17. You sacrificed stuff that you loved to do, to make me happy.
18. You were happy because I was happy, you cared about what made me happy.
19. You’ve shared me with your family, I’ve met so much of them and they are so very nice people.
20. You looked like a princess at ball, and it was all for me.
21. You’ve ran to me, called me, did everything just to make sure that I was okay.
22. You’re the only person to ever gloat about how “Good of a boyfriend” you had.
23. You’re the only person actually get sad and miss me and wait for me until we saw each other next.
24. You put up with me when I am mean and say mean things when you do good things or try to make me feel better.
25. You made me cry tears of joy to realize how lucky of a guy I am to have had you.
Thank you for being with me for over a year, I can’t believe you stayed that long but you proved that you wanted to, you proved that you loved and cared about me. You did what I thought the impossible was. You loved me when I thought I was unlovable. I love you so much, I hope everything works out with us together in the end because I really can’t let go of any of this. I need you.